My Spiritual Journey

By Shital Gour




How I Slowly Found Light in My Darkest Moments. I never imagined I would walk on a spiritual path. It wasn’t planned. It wasn’t something I searched for. It was something life pushed me toward when my heart felt too heavy to carry alone.

There was a time when I felt lost - even in a room full of people.

I laughed on the outside, but inside, I felt a quiet ache I couldn’t explain.

One evening, when everything felt too loud and too overwhelming, I just closed my eyes and took a deep breath.

For the first time in a long time, I felt a tiny moment of peace.

That single breath became the beginning of my spiritual journey.


Sitting With My Feelings

I stopped running away from my emotions.

I let myself feel—really feel.

Some days I cried.

Some days I smiled.

Some days I felt numb.

But I stayed with myself, the way I wished others would stay with me.

And that began to heal something deep inside.


Redefining Spirituality in My Own Way

Spirituality wasn’t a book or a rule for me.

It wasn’t about perfection.

It wasn’t about being “good enough.”

It was more like:

  • whispering a prayer when my voice shook
  • writing my feelings even when they hurt
  • trusting that the universe listens, even to my silence
  • believing that I am guided, even when I feel lost

It became a connection I felt, not something I forced.


Letting Nature Hold Me

Whenever my heart felt heavy, I stepped into nature.

The sky, the wind, the trees- they didn’t judge me.

They didn’t ask questions or expect explanations.

They just existed.

And for the first time, I learned how to exist peacefully too.

Standing under the open sky made me realize that nothing is permanent- not pain, not confusion, not fear.

The world kept moving, and so could I. 


Taking Breaks From Noise

I didn’t delete social media, but I learned how to distance myself from digital chaos.

Even 10 minutes of silence felt like a warm hug to my soul.

In that quiet space, I started hearing myself again.

My Little Rituals of Light

I created small, gentle habits that made me feel alive:

  • lighting a candle when my thoughts got dark
  • Thanking the universe for even the smallest blessing
  • listening to soft music at night
  • letting myself breathe without pressure

These tiny moments became my safe place.

Trusting Myself Again

Some days my mind was peaceful.

Other days it was a storm.

But I showed up anyway.

Slowly, I began to trust my own heart.

I realized I have strength I never noticed before, softness I shouldn’t be ashamed of, and a soul that’s learning to rise again and again.

My Message to Everyone

To anyone reading this -

whether you’re young, confused, emotional, or simply trying to find your place in this big world - I want you to know this:

You are not alone.

Your feelings are valid.

Your soul is trying, even on days you feel defeated.

Take a breath.

Take a pause.

Let yourself feel.

Let yourself heal.

You don’t need to have everything figured out.

Just choose one gentle moment each day - to listen to your heart, to quiet your mind, to reconnect with your spirit.

Your journey doesn’t have to look like mine. It doesn’t have to look like anyone’s.

Just keep walking.

Keep believing.

Keep growing.

Your light is coming - and when it arrives, you will understand why the darkness had to exist.


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